At this time I can feel the pain and depression seeping into my life. I know what I am going to do. Which is just give into the ridiculous no interest rate loans illegally called the smart loans via Sallie Mae and just go back to school and then hope in the future when my $5,000 loan becomes $30,000 that I will win the lottery or something. Which is ridiculous. I will not be able to.
However, there are a lot of citizens out there who are not as strong as I am. There are citizens now that their unemployment is cut. They have lost their homes, their children have been forced into bad neighborhoods. Where the kids are already starting to act out through physical aggression because of their lost quality of life. Like Children do when things are drastically changed. The economy has not gotten any better. The Unemployment rate is still high. Our troops are still fighting a war that does not benefit the US as much as it benefits our enemy the MSS and the CCP. Both parties find it better to Becker and work on the demand side of economy. Than act like adults and work on the actual supply side. Which is jobs, mineral's, and exports. Along with keeping our country competitive against countries like Communist China.
I feel during the day high fits of rage and anger. From not being able to afford shoes that do not smell. Having to watch a best friend go out with others because I can't afford to go. Having to walk down streets where being a minority like me is dangerous. As the gangs in the neighborhood are not my culture. The whole idea that there are no jobs that I can work where I can survive to me causes so much pain and frustration inside of my brain. At times I can barely take the anger fits I get. Which is not normal for me.
I could not imagine a husband or mother who has to go through this watching her children go through it. I do the best I can. I mean for the most part I am content. However, I do not know what I am going to do for money. I did not take my last check from Unemployment. As I thought maybe that would force me to find a job that pays less. However, I am to qualified for those jobs. I thought I would find a job in another state. However, I do not have a vehicle and do not wish to leave behind the $130,000 worth of books and research I have done in my book shelves.
I just wish our macro economists would create a country surplus so we could have jobs and enough tax surplus to take care of things. Instead of all this idea of demand supply and allowing the Communist Chinese to take our country, via a proxy war with Al Queada and the mass amount of unfair SOE illegal market monopolies.
I do know how to fix it and I call the DOD every night telling them how. However, it is like nobody hears me.